I really don't like to vent much, but jesus forget recently has just been a nightmare, this really just started with the home stuff but forget it I guess
HOME
my mother wants to move house again to a place half a mile away from where we currently are, not even a year after coming up here. anyone in their right loving mind would think this is a handicapped idea because it's basically like where we are now, and it's perfect here and it will only get worse when we make a really pointless move like this because it will just disrupt everything
to give some back story to this, the reasons she wants this house is because my brother moved in there in June, and she thought it was a much nicer house than ours even though it's only slightly cleaner and bigger (probably because they literally just moved into it). after that my brother got divorced in September and is in the process of moving away. she is now seriously thinking of moving into his abandoned house even though we've just settled here and no one wants her to move, not even our neighbours, but no one can stop her really if she does go through with it. this move will also take us further away from my dads house, the reason to come up here was to move closer to him (like literally just across the road from us) so he could visit easier
the reason I, my father or anyone else don't want her to move because the process of moving really stressed us out the last time, especially my dad who did 60% of the work which will end up going to waste. it will also disrupt my school work again and make it even harder for me to get to school since the bus stop will also be half a mile away.
I really want some advice here on what to say to her, even though she is really really ignorant to anyone saying anything against this. I've tried telling her that it's just too stressful to move but she doesn't take me seriously here.
some other nitpicky stuff is that I really wanna go and do some metalwork at home, but then I found out my mother sold loving everything we had that would be perfect to do this.
SCHOOL
school has been horrible in this week alone. I got back after a 2 week break so far it's just not gone well. I lost my physics notebook which had 90% of my notes on electricity, I need that to revise at a later date and not just to write in, I've looked literally everywhere in the school for it and at home.
one of my classes doesn't even have a teacher and it's a class I really want to pass if I'm to learn anything about being an engineer/designer and it's really hard when you can't get through coursework due to not knowing what to do or having nothing to do, but I think I'm managing here.
mathematics is going good but I feel I'm gonna completely fail it, I'm clueless on it and I absolutely need it if I'm gonna be an engineer, so I need to understand it, which I hardly do. although it's only a quarter of the way into the course and all we've been doing is algebra and shapes/volumes and I passed a test by more than half the marks. I don't actually understand it in depth though, which I want to by the end of it and even then I feel the next level is going to kill me.
computing class is a total wreck, database work has been driving me absolutely crazy and it's making me want to just drop the course, I can't begin to describe how loving confusing and stuffty it is to be handed the most tedious task and use the most tedious loving software that is access 2007. also I just passed a test that should've been easy for me on computing systems by 1 mark, and it was just out of pure guessing. it's my fault for not revising but I missed the notice that it was coming because the day that it was announced was the day my bus drove straight past me.
transport is another issue here, and it has been for the entire time I've moved up here. the bus on a few occasions has just drove directly past me and I was forgeted for getting to school because my parents couldn't drive me (don't ask why, they're not logical reasons). that isn't even the worst of it though because these are service busses, not school ones which means they run for other people and then the school. getting home is seriously the most difficult task ever too, I have to take one bus from the school to another bus stop which takes me up home and they're both service busses, if the first bus is late then the other bus can go without me (which it has done once but I've done everything to catch it). well recently the first bus has been doing that every day that I just walked to another bus stop, which was fine in the summer but not now, and since we aren't allowed to wear jackets over this new uniform which is strict af. (my parents also keep btiching at me about this and I wish they would care a little loving less about me getting wet) that brings me onto what happened today
so today the first bus actually arrived on time, I decided I'd go get on it and walked to it, (it's supposed to stop and pick up passengers from the bus stop I get off at by the way) I get on and this stupid cunt, not sure whether he was new but he refused to drive me to where I needed to get off and said this was a paid bus (it wasn't though since we have bus passes that allow us to travel), and to go get a local bus and he said it in the most half assed attitude and sounded really bad mouthed about it, so I got off. except as I was getting off the people who DIDN'T have their passes who were going elsewhere were refused access until enough of them came and he said they would get charged if they didn't bring it. I'm just annoyed cause he did not have to act like such a cunt to everyone holy stuff
tl;dr we're thinking of making a useless house move and I wanna tell my mother no but can't and also school has been a bitch
I'm concious of the fact that I'm also really aggressive on here, and to all my friends on steam. so if it's been either me snapping at you or my long term snapping at you then sorry, whoever you are
I know I'm not having like the absolute worst of luck, not by a long stretch knowing how many of you have lost someone dear to you recently
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