yeah, i'm sort of in the same boat as you.
my curriculum is totally irrelevant to what i plan out my life to be. i loving dread going to school because it's nothing but a semi-pointless, socially isolated place. mostly the socially isolated part.
i have acne that will not go away even after i've tried all the top of the line medications, i think it's due to stress or anxiety; i force myself to shower and stuff because i truthfully just don't give a forget anymore, it's not like anyone wants me; and my life is so goddamn boring. where's the excitement that a normal teen has? where's the social circles? where's the parties? wheres coming home at 10 after having fun all day? i want to get a job so at least i have something to say when my friends ask me "what did you do yesterday?" i normally just say "nothing much" because i don't want to tell them i sit on the computer all day in despair.
sorry i didn't mean to turn this into me, but my emotions just kind of came flooding through me. if i don't post this it won't make me feel any lighter.