If you actually planned on or knew how to change, you'd just quit trolling and stop being a douchebag instead of making a sarcastic stuffpost about how 'enlightened' you are. The only real apology is getting your stuff together and not being a pretentious nutcase about it.
If you actually just made an effort to change, people would notice. They probably wouldn't give you a pat on the back and some undeserved praise like you're painfully obviously jonesing for, but they would notice. I don't have to tell you this, because somewhere along the lines on your last ~4 accounts, it actually happened, before you forgeted it up that is.