Hello Squideey. I understand your torment, and I want to help you. And in doing such, I offer you a choice.

You can take the
red pill. The red pill is the harder pill to swallow. It will change you, but for better or for worse is up to you. Or, you can take the
blue pill. This pill is much easier to swallow and if you do, you will go about your life like any other day, interacting with the normies and becoming one them, complacent but comfortable.
The choice is yours, but once you choose you cannot change your mind.

Choose wisely.