no this is serious
like I've been crying for atleast 2 hours now and my eyes sting
protip: seek help from therapists instead of random people you don't know online
tell your parents and schedule an appointment with a psychiatrist
edit: to add on to this (not trying to be rude) nobody really gives a stuff about you or your problems on the internet so you most likely aren't going to find sympathy here, you'd have better luck dealing with this with your parents, a therapist, etc.