they want me to get a "real" hobby like golf or farming or surfing.
call them nerds because those hobbies are not particularily viable i mean come on how are u gonna surf or farm
you're going to hate your past work constantly and that is okay. insecurity is annoying. when you feel like you are accomplished you will be able to look back and laugh and also be embarrassed. or at least hopefully. for now though, at least you're ridiculously self-conscious and know whats good and whats not. which means you improve.
if someone asks the question of what you want to do in life just say what you already said about doing whatever you want because you're a ~free spirit~ but shorten it to like a sentence
it is a perfectly viable answer and if someone disagrees tell them to stop being a nerd
to survive against the constant hassling you have to be deadpan serious-hell business, to be cool, intimidating, unassailable, with the strongest of self control
sort of like some people you can see on the forums!
don't take that assrichard school comments, or when your family brings up your history videos, or when they blame you for your own insecurity
because this is
serious businessalso scale down the image of your grades its a pagestretch