i wasted most of my childhood, blowing off preparation for the future and adulthood as "i'll have time for it later" and now i'm out of time and i'm completely forgeted. i don't have a job, i haven't checked out any colleges, i don't have any money, and the only thing i want to do anymore is make art and play instruments but i'm not sure how to turn any of this into a career because i am completely loving incompetent and my mental disorder is stressing me out ever more than before and all i ever do is eat, sleep, game, and draw. i'm stuck and i don't know what to do