Personal History, Chapter 10: #2017 #spring
#may (5/14/17)
By this point I had started exercising at #goldsgym rigorously. Whereas, I used to only go to talk to girls and pretend to be a #coolheaded guy. That #dishonesty had set my #soulonfire, on the inside. But now the flames were being put out through a #healthydiet and rigorous exercise.
Before, I used to talk to people primarily to practice my #socialskills, and try to #categorize and observe their #personalities.
This, I realized was a #foolserrand; they were simply responding to me, as I presented myself. So if I experimented with my #communication, I would simply sell them a #falseimpression of who I truly was.
Fortunately, by starting to #takefullresponsibility for everything that had happened in my life, I gained a #spiritualawareness, which evolved into #spiritualclairvoyance by #august #2018; that is, the ability to see the truth of a situation, as #selfevident. #thoughtit #fakedit #madeit
Personal History, Chapter 9: #2017 #spring #april (4/8/17)
A glimpse inside my old computer case.
For me, this #pc was like an extension of my #self. Since, age 6, I had felt #underestimated and #leftout, so I vowed to #proveeveryonewrong one day.
And just as I upgraded this underpowered #windowsvista #2007 #compaqpresario, into a modern #windows10 #gamingrig. I became #morethanmeetstheeye, like #bumblebee or #hotshot, in #transformers
Personal History, Chapter 9: #2017 #spring #april (4/21/17)
By this point I was coming back to terms with the fact that I had always been an #empath, that is, someone who feels the #emotions of others as if they were his own.
I realized that I was merely #pretending to be #coldhearted, when truthfully, I was a genuinely #altruistic guy, with #repressedfeelings of #abandonment and #betrayal.
Also, working at @dawsonsmarket showed me the importance of eating natural foods, like #salad, #freshseafood, and #organic #dietarysupplements. I even started taking #diatomaceousearth to remove heavy metals from my body.
As #hippocrates once said "Food is medicine." And ironically that quote is also written on the label of the @gardenoflife #organic #vitaminb12 #supplement I was taking at the time.
Personal History, Chapter 9: #2016 #fall #september (9/8/16)
By this point I was extremely high functioning as a #genius, and had learned to express seemingly genuine emotions, without revealing my true intentions.
I basically became the #perfect #singleagent; a fearful, distrusting person, expressing himself as a trusting, loving humanitarian. #never #showing #anger
With this new awareness, I call the Spiritual Judging type, I could see the relationship between the faults in my own actions, and the actions of others, but I had extreme difficulty expressing myself clearly when I felt emotions.
This was my Martian energy (Ever heard the saying "Men are from Mars"?), my genius mentality. #2013spring