And you don't even understand it yourself so like how can you describe something you're experiencing but don't understand??
*Inhale*
Yea that was a lot but whatever that's how I'm feeling, I want to talk to my friends about all this but instead I just say "I don't feel good" or whatever a few times a year when someone does notice I'm down.
but yea today it made me sad that a girl looked at me and smiled, and that ruined the rest of my day.
What died in me so many years ago? Why is my life like this? What did I do wrong to deserve this deranged, dysfunctional, defective, genius, handicapped, brilliant, idiotic brain?
Wow perfect example I started out searching for help and I'm ending this being rhetorical.