i think the covid lockdowns was the thing that broke the camel's back. i became more openly hostile, started to see society and people for who they actually are, became severely antisocial and going against social norms more regularly.
during one of the covid lockdown scams i would say things under my mask to people irritating me in the shops, they wouldnt know who said it, or i'd pull faces at people. then one time there was this handicapped traffic light system to limit people in the shop, i pretended i had just exited the store then pretending i forgotten something walked in via the exit. i then started laughing uncontrollably and quite hard, no word of a lie.
i havent been as bad since but i am still more of a social hand grenade than i ever was. i intentionally do stuff to be aggravating to shop workers by moving stuff around or chucking stuff about.
there is something seriously wrong with me that is undiagnosed. i wish what i told you was some joker arc fantasy but it really isnt.