What is with people and killing themselves on TV and/or Webcam? :S
To Whom It May Concern,I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows mereads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I aman a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will neverchange or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I amnot good enough for her. I have cometo believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and Ikeep failing. I have thought about and attempted Self Delete many times inthe past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of tellingme that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing Idread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not wantmy mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead meto kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. Ithought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and Iam right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread everynew day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to giveme every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I thinkthat I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always brokeand I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. Iam tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I amtired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and Ihope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault Iscrewed up my own life.The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly orthose who have crossed my path.This hate rages full force towards me and only me.I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannotcome to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, andthe things I've done to hurt those in my life.You have all touched my life in one way or another,especially those whom I call family.I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. Ihope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me notsuffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being atrest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hardto fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so manytimes, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I amhas only brought myself and others pain.I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.Forgive me.Love always and forever,As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyonereads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"
I'd bet money if someone posted on this forum about intentions of self mutilation/deatheveryone would "goad" the person to do it all the same.