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I'm a 15 year old girl (Looks like that's how most people start anyways.) and I don't go to school. Mum took me out of public school when I was 9,(3rd grade) and began her own way of 'home schooling' me. Except what she does is completely illegal. She told the public school she'd start me in 'private school' so that they wouldn't bother her about me. I'm supposed to take regular tests like everybody else, yet I've never taken a test in my life. When I was 11 I got sick of being home schooled and not learning anything, (I love to learn, I honestly do.) so I wrote my Mum a note, explaining why I want to go back and how much I really do. (I have a hard time talking to my Mum, and this is a good reason why.. )
Immediately she began yelling at me, telling me how much of a great job she's been doing and how dare I. She had only read the first sentence, which was "I wanna go back to public school." She hadn't even read the whole damn letter, which was about half a regular sized page long. After I told her to read the whole thing, she did and began bawling. Promising me that she'll teach me again and if in one school year I don't like being home schooled still, that she'll put me back.
Guess what? She never kept teaching me, I never went back to school and no matter how badly I want to go, I don't have a chance with just a 3rd grade education. She told me once, that she'd give me the last to years of high school but that's just bull stuff. I'm sick and tired of her not teaching me anything. She always says that I can go to her with anything yet she never acts like it.
Mum, when I was 3, got in a bad car wreck. She was in a coma for 6 months, and had been told that she would never walk again. She's still able to walk, which is a miracle really. But she has Fybromialgia(sp?) which means she's in constant pain 24/7. There's no cure for it, and she's on the highest dose of pain medication she can get. She constantly smokes, and promises to quit yet she never does.
Our house is a wreck. There are books everywhere for home schooling, clothes all over the place.. There's only just enough room to walk around the place. I say that Mum's considered a 'hoarder' (google it if you don't know.) but she calls the place 'cluttered'. Her way of cleaning things, is to move everything somewhere else and to get even more things. Anytime we go out shopping this is what she does, she buys things. She gets them from Freecycle, and other various websites that offer free or inexpensive things.
My Dad, he's just great. He understands that I hate it at home so he takes me out places to get me away for a little while, if at least a couple hours. Me and him always have fun.. He has anger issues, though they don't seem to be as bad as they used to be. He quit smoking ages ago for me, because when I was little I begged them both to quit. Mum stopped for a little while, but couldn't keep away.
I contemplated Self Delete once, my best friend was also very depressed and angry at the world, also contemplating Self Delete.. me and her didn't talk a lot then, and eventually we stopped talking for a couple years.
I met a boy on blockland and after awhile, he just made me happier. He made me feel like I had a friend, because I was very lonely. All of my elementary school friends had abandoned me since I didn't go to school with them anymore.. I was seriously depressed because my best friend had stopped talking to me.
So y'know, this boy made me feel really great inside, thinking that somewhere in the world at least there was this boy being my friend.
Today, he's my best friend and I wouldn't trade the world for him. :]
I'd tell you more, but I think I took up too much room anyways.
