Sorry for spam or attention whoring.
But I can't take it anymore. Earlier today I was trying to draw (it's the only thing I'm good at besides computer games) but I can't hold the pencil right. It's the same thing with my wrists, one night I was experiencing really bad hand pains, and then the next morning I couldn't move them. Ever. Now my fingers are forgeted up really badly. I hate my life.
That's not it, though. I've been on 5 different medicines, none of them worked for some reason. Everyone thinks I'm useless. I no real life friends. Most mornings I cannot feed myself. I wish I could just die. Life sucks. Plus, my family doesn't have much, we're poor. We use food stamps. So they can't barely afford my physical therapy, because insurance won't pay for it.
Maybe I'm just going through a depressive phase. But I don't loving know. ;~;
Once again, sorry for being an attention whore. I just really needed to vent.
