I was raised in a family that was Christian.
It wasn't until 2008 that I started thinking about it. During 2009 I constantly thought about it, and naturally, the argument for a God and religion became more and more bogus the more I considered it.
Late 2009 I considered myself an atheist, but it wasn't easy. I wanted to believe in an afterlife and a God because I am human and I found it safer and more comforting. Admittedly it was hard at first to abandon religious views which were part of my life for so long. Part of me thinks you are similar Aces, in that you'd rather believe it because you want to, not because you actually do.
Now my views are completely clear, I am an atheist and I wouldn't ever look back. In hindsight, religion was always so ridiculous. I guess you don't understand how ridiculous it is until you are external from it.
Aces, I suggest you do what I did and sit on it for a year. Think about it for as long as you need to. Nobody can tell you what to believe except yourself. Think about why you believe what you do, and deconstruct your beliefs to the core.
I'm happy I dropped religion early in my life. Religion used to feel "safe" but it just seems so twisted to me now.