i need to vent, why else to a community of blockland.
iv been having dreams quite frquestly, i cant get them outa my mind, my mind constatly revolve around them, i cant even think strait at this moment, so equse me if i dont make sence.
my dad is always gone for months at times for his work, and its always been like that, i miss him, but weve always gotten through it, latley he comes home ,sets up rules and then he just leaves, and expects us to follow them, yet we just convert them back. my mom is always full of hatre towards me, i just wish it could reverse to back when i was smaller, i enjoyed my life, i was happy and i remember all of the friends i lost, but i guess thats how it is.
i just got into a fight with my miom, and got pushed so i pushed her back n i feel like stuff because i pushed her abck and she fell down,
iv been considering Self Delete for the longest time now because im afraid of myself, i have a temper that is never easibly fixed, or ever will be, im chronically depressed, and i dont think living here is a good idea anymore, but im afraid of doing anything else.
i smoke weed to keep my constant migranes from happining, and im able to become socially functional again, if not i fallen down into my mind set of all this,
idk what to compare it to, its like a shadow that lurks inside of me until i loose my cool.
forget forums.
idk what to do...