i'm mostly trying to understand how the heck that thought process works, though i guess it wouldn't really be possible to understand
oh well
gg
If that's what your after, I don't know if I can even explain it. I myself don't have that great an understanding of how it happened. It's basically just one of those gut-feeling type situations. As a young kid I guess I did girly things like play with barbies, and during recess I'd have boys rescue me, the fair princess, from a dragon or something. When I began to mature, something felt really out of place, and as I came into my teenage years I started having an identity crCIA. At first I thought I was gay and was in denial about it, because back then I sorely hated homoloveuals. But that didn't feel like it fit me either. Any forum account or similar I had online was always female, and every time I played a game where I had the choice of the character's gender, it was female. I felt really comfortable being referred to as 'she' and whatnot. So I stuck with it, not knowing what transgender or anything was. When I was fifteen, someone mentioned the word to me and instantly I just felt like 'that's me', and so I've been there ever since, broadening my knowledge about, well... me. What makes me me.
