why should i bother anymore. its not worth it.
No, it is worth it. I thought that for a while but I was wrong. Everybody has struggles. You've got to learn to fight them tooth and nail and show life you are capable of kicking it's butt to the curb.
no one can fix this. no one could even hope to restore the happiness that was once my life. I'm nothing now, a soulless husk, wondering the earth with no direction, no hope and no purpose.
That's wrong. Who can fix this? You can. You can fix this. You need to realize that you're not alone, there are people that will help you, and you
can do it. You
can make it.
I'd say ask for God to help, but that's my beliefs and I don't think you're quite interested in hearing them.
those who remember, this isn't the first time i've done a depression thread on this forum. But, this is the only time its been true depression. This feeling of emptiness...its madding. I want it to stop, so bad. but i know it wont.
Lots of people have lost people. You've got to get back up and keep fighting.
No. my life was miserable before. I was depressed when she found me. I was contimplating Self Delete when she saved me, gave me happiness and hope again.
Don't let some girl get you down, man. I've gone my whole life without social acceptance at all. I'm an autistic "freak" and there are few people that like me. So what? I'm as happy as something really happy. Music brings me joy. Video games are fun and awesome. I'm never felt better.
and now its gone. and im back to the worthless piece of crap I've always been.
That is a LIE. Nobody is worthless. Everybody has purpose. You need to get up, stand on your feet, look the world in the eye and spit in it's face. You can do whatever you want. Nobody is stopping you but yourself.
I'm not one of these pitiful teens that say YOLO and SWAG. I see the world how it is, I see all the pain, suffering, all the stupid leaders and hungry people. The world is a terrible place where we are forced to live.
But you have to see the good, too. You've got to see the healing, the helping, the great leaders and satisfied people. Yes, there's really bad stuff in the world but that doesn't mean there isn't good! If everybody dwelled on the bad in life, nothing would get done. It's the people that say "I'm going to help in any way I can to get rid of this evil" that fix things, not the ones that say "Everything in the world sucks why does it suck I suck everything sucks"
How many times must a man build himself up, and allow himself to be torn down? How many times must one heart shatter, barely get put back together, just to be ripped apart again? I don't wish to go through it again. I've had enough suffering for one life.
Like I said, everybody has problems. Most people solve those problems. The rest commit Self Delete or become a hobo. You've got the power to rise up and fix those problems, and seeing as you've got more potential than other teens, I have lots of confidence that you can.
I appreciate the help. But it's all been tried before. I'm not insane, i dont expect the same thing to work after multiple failures. The only other person who made me feel special and wanted in this world was my grandad. Who passed away February 22nd of this year. that, was the last time my heart was broken. And she was the only person who helped me. and now she's gone. And the despair of both his death and her loss mixes into the emptiness that is my soul.
Find somebody who cares about you. Find somebody who won't leave you, won't forsake you, etc. There are people out there that will help you and love you.
In the words of a famous fictional boxer, "It's not about how hard you can hit. It's about how hard you can take a hit, get up, and keep fighting."
Get up. You've got work to do, bro.
