this is because you're a terrible person incapable of interacting with women in a normal and healthy way, similarly reflecting your inability to actually connect with people (best exemplified in yoyr inability to talk to men well), ultimately all showing that a. you are incredibly lonely and extremely desperate for companionship or the more likely b. you cannot sustain healthy relationships and use women as physic and presumably emotional outlets
oh wait, i guess that's what all the drugs and alcohol are for