i am not looking for sympathy i just needed to tell someone about this to help me feel better.
That's looking for sympathy.
But it's okay, I know how you feel.
I used to have a few rats.
One had a tooth that literally grew though the roof of it's mouth and almost into its brain.
Another god a tumor almost as big as itself.
And a third scratched its own eye out.
(they were albino rats, white fur and red eyes)