Another thing, if you attempt Self Delete and it fails, I already lose a lot of respect for you.
But if you attempt Self Delete and it fails, then you post about it on an online forums, I see that as an act of wanting attention, and this makes it so much worse.
Like seriously, you shouldn't be wasting your time posting here about it. You should be figuring out how to overcome the depression / calm the angst. Go out and have some fun, talk to someone. Meet some people. Don't plea for attention on an online forum.