Not too long my dog , puggle, Max, who was 10 years old, has succumbed to his cancer. We tried everything to make him better, but the vet recommended we don't do surgery / chemotherapy because of his age and the condition he was in, it would be best if he be either put to sleep or naturally pass away at home, and the cost was $2000 - $3000 which we just did not have at the moment to shell out on our dog. I feel loving terrible for not trying to convince my family members to go with it, like it's all my fault. Basically, I was in shock. I was right next to it when it happened. I tried to give him water, I petted him, took some pictures and videos... anything I could to preserve the memory and make his final moments the most heartwarming, that he knew I was with him til the end. I knew his end was nearing, but I didn't expect it for another week or so... I am severely depressed because this is the first time I actually lost something in my life that I cared about ( at this age in which I understand what has happened. ) and I don't know what to do with myself... I feel so angry and sad at the same time and I just loving can't think. I can't believe I'm even posting this stuff on the forums, as I will probably get bashed with smart-ass replies saying " it's all your fault. " or some other stuff that I don't want to be loving dealing with right now. I just. Need. Advice. How can I relieve all this stress from my recent loss...
R.I.P. Max, January 8, 2004 - July 31, 2014
