I never claimed to want to help new players, and I never wanted to join the war to my east until I realized Conservatia was about to join. The war then was between a brand new nation with an older but smaller nation, versus a strategically located state with a solid population, high quality weapons and a large military - hardly the puppy kicking you claim. I never mocked any nations for helping Sunyong, and I would invite you to find the post where I did.
I don't understand why you are having problems with nations that have joined first having advantages in size - that is the benefit to starting early, is it not? But I suppose it matters not if you're leaving.
I think and hope that the shadowy overlords of Sunyong and Conservatia, blazerblock2 and grunterdb1951, understand none of this is personal nor is it due to a problem I have OOC, as I don't have one. It's simply the nature of nation RPs.