I've been fighting against myself not to do that.
I don't want to give me hope.
I don't even know if it's just like them being friendly or what because we're acquaintances but we've never really talked in the years we've been acquainted, but I have a horrible awful habbit of like easily feeling deeply connected to people, and it always gets me hurt, so that's why I avoid people when possible aside from close friends, great now I'm oversharing.