Bit of a self-rant/self-vent but coming across this post by a discord friend, I can't help but feel guilty seeing this post and the rest of the people I genuinely miss only because I haven't contributed much in terms of content regardless of the current state of Blockland.
The best I could do was host gamemodes I personally enjoy, like Mafia Madness. Even then, I wasn't mentally cut for that because I had plenty of issues moderating anything myself. I really wanted to learn Torquescript and its engine to at least provide a lot of good and original content at about 2016-2018 despite how outdated it seems and I wanted to learn it ASAP, otherwise, it would have been too late. Problem is, again, it was outdated, but I had school, other bigger things to worry about than coding, I had Python to learn first as well, and I was just really forgetin' stupid honestly. Excuses which could have been cared to manage, which is probably why I feel guilty about it today. I really loved to learn how gamemodes like Crown's Prison Break and its maps (what was that add-on...variables, or something?) are programmed, and other cool games I played back then. Instead I spent more time in Drama and Off-Topic for god-knows-what than anywhere else; I only have myself to blame for that. Perhaps that's where the guilt hits.
Didn't really matter how the community was, didn't really matter how Badspot was acting at the time, I just had plenty of time to make some stuff while there's a form of community left. I have a lot of people to thank for trying to get me into the coding side of the game, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be, given everything back then. Now I just really look at posts like this and think about some good throwbacks, the could-have-beens, etc, and I even see some people I missed talking to and seeing here. Is it still too late now, even if the future looks bleak, I wonder?
Has anyone else genuinely felt this type of guilt some point? Even if Blockland were to skyrocket with players and community the next week or so, that guilt is still passive in me. At the end of the day though, I'm just coping, but I'm also just chilling. :/
I can probably offer my hand into going through TS for the community once more, even if it's as simple as hosting, though I don't want to promise anything. It seems like some people here are already suggesting ideas for what games to host here, but as for me, I haven't thought of anything yet; I just wonder if it's too late now.
On another note,
open source now (i will simply kill the hackers)
This idea seems strangely interesting to me.