Swollow, i understand why you're resentful, i really do (i also agree that badspot needs to get a bit of a grip)
but i seriously recommend you try to let go of that anger and blame, i held resentment towards this place for years and it negatively impacted my life without me realizing.
letting go and forgiving is not condoning the actions or agreeing with anyone, it's nothing more than taking the weight off your own shoulders and not allowing the people who hurt you to have power in your life.
it's going to be okay.
also try to remember what you're doing at your current age vs what trolls did at the same age back then, and that should tell you that you're far better off than any of them.
Badspot's opinions are wacky and he's really out there, but it shouldn't bother you that much. don't even worry about it and just breath.
you seem like you went through some stuff but seriously, you just beat life on hard mode and should be proud of that.
who should we even blame for this kind of stuff?
i blame the 2000s. i blame ignorance towards mental illness and the internet.
i blame the times and the society we lived in for endorsing that kind of behavior. a lot of us hid this kind of stuff from our parents, leaving them unable to properly supervise us.
i used to hold badspot and his moderation responsible, but i realized he was unable to control the community due to either his own mental issues or not understanding the depth of internet harassment. i'm not excusing the type of stuff he allowed to fester, i'm just saying i don't blame him for it.
hell, the way he discusses and views the opposite love could be evident women treated him badly, we don't know what happened in his life.
At one point i began blaming the community as a whole, then i realized not everyone was responsible or "knew better"
finally i blamed the perpetrators themselves, but then i realized something probably happened in their life to make them act like a richard or want to kick down at children.
the ones that turned into freaks were probably touched, this does not excuse child enthusiasm, obviously, but it's a true fact. loveual predators usually come from a long string of abuse that never got properly dealt with. they are forgeted up and sick in the head, obviously not condoning their actions, and yes they should still be held responsible for such actions.
i'm just saying if society had given them the proper help at a young age they could probably recover and be a normal person. (yes i know some people are just wicked and do it for no reason, those are the ones that need to be punished/executed/locked up/whatever)
there is probably some kind of weird psychological stuff we don't understand yet. there is probably something mentally going on with the people who used the internet at a young age, we were the first generation exposed to this kind of technological bullstuff during a crucial age.
so in short, i just blame the world for being a forgeted up place. we grew up in a really weird time (i don't need to explain how trashy the 2000s were) and just need to do what we can to end the cycle and deal with these newfound issues that literally did not exist 40 years ago.
