Wow, it's been a while - almost three years! I was browsing through my history when I stumbled on this post, so I figured I might as well reply.
I last posted on the forums on December 23rd, 2020. A lot's happened in my life in these last three years.
On December 25th, 2021, I realized I'm trans. I came out to my family and friends, started HRT, lost old friends, gained new friends, changed my name, got a girlfriend, got in a car crash, got a job to pay for my HRT, all the while looking to find a tech job that'll hire some random woman with no academic credentials or professional experience to speak of. Fun times!
Blockland holds a lot of memories for me, both good and bad. I remember the friendships I had across nearly a decade that I was part of this community, most of whom I've lost touch with and will probably never hear from again. I remember all the wonderful game mods I wrote and servers I hosted, and the fun times we had. I also remember the toxicity this community could bring, and how somehow Blockland always brought out the worst version of myself. More than anything else, that was why I stopped hosting - I don't like the person I become when I host.
To everyone I met, thank you for the good experiences we had, and I apologize for adding to the bad.