anyways, don't you personally find it the least bit ironic that your house burns down a week after you telling lord tony his dog dying was karma?
No, because I lost nothing from the fire. It was all my mom's stuff. The two rooms that did not get flooded with smoke was my bedroom and the computer room, and I took my laptop with me. 100% of losses were my mom's and her ex-boyfriend's.
Yes, I lied and fabricated plots to scare you, but I have no desire to hurt you. Calm the forget down.
Yes, it's my fault I allowed myself to be weak and susceptible enough to talk to you for a full year and let you acquire this information about you in the first place.
Yes, I did get upset that she said she'd never date me. Just the finality of "No" pissed me of because of the fact I was the person that embraced her unusual special interest and helped her feel comfortable about it in the first place. She's only able to put up an avatar of it now because I was there last year talking about it and telling her repeatedly that she can be appreciated as a person despite wanting to eat people. This is how she became more comfortable being a voreaphile.
I'm sorry that I included you in the ignore script by default. That was unnecessary instigation towards you when you were already upset.
I'll repeat what I said on the 4th one more time so that it's public:
Look, I'm sorry I said that I'd hurt you. It was the only way I could really hold your attention and let you know that what you were saying was driving up the wall.
It's not a begrudging apology, it's the truth. I could never seem to get you to care and that was the one way I could.
On the 4th I told you I wanted to keep being your friend because I thought you were cool. I still have enormous respect for your cognition and knowledge of global politics, religion, and world history. You're one of the most intelligent people I have ever met and it is absolutely horrifying to me that you're using this to try and humiliate me.
You've won. You won over me before I even knew your name was Clara and you were white, and if you had not of tried to destroy me in the last week, I'd totally be open to being buddy-buddy with you again, but I know now you are absolutely untrustworthy and I will not subjugate myself to further punishment from you.
I am a cruel and unusual person. You found me interesting because of how I functioned and reacted to you.
You are a cruel and unusual person. I found you interesting because of how you functioned and your quirks.
This is why we were friends.
I will speak of the horse no more.
