OP is habitual problem user johhnny1ace, Keith, Markey, Markeyy, hedrokka ... etc. He's now banned - again - so he won't be able to reply. I don't know if the sob story is true or not, but I'm starting to think that the world would be a better place if everyone who threatened to kill themselves just did it. It's super easy. I'm thinking about selling kits on etsy.