just let it all out 1

[Folie à Deux]

I am damaged mentally, I have issues with talking to people and therefore people often dislike me because I never talk to them even when I'm supposed to.

mmh
ive been kicked out of friend circles because of my moodswings caused by BPD
its funny because i always tell them about it when i start hanging out with them
then when something particular happens and i tell them its because BPD they claim im BSing, hiding behind it and that im a coward

people have flat out told me i deserve my BPD and depression, and that i should off myself (this is IRL, ex-friends, not just forum banter). when other friends from that friend circle see it they just either bat a blind eye or agree with it

i could rant about this all day but what i just wrote only scratches the surface
huff, i even have screenshots of someone telling me all this, but theyre in Dutch, sadly.

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[Rally]

I have severe social anxiety, not the "I've sat inside my entire like because I'm an awkward autismo" kind, but whenever I go out to parties/concerts/meet up with people I don't know that well, I have to spend like an hour before hand to get control over the anxiety

[Yosher]

mmh
ive been kicked out of friend circles because of my moodswings caused by BPD
its funny because i always tell them about it when i start hanging out with them
then when something particular happens and i tell them its because BPD they claim im BSing, hiding behind it and that im a coward

here's a tip: stop blaming all your faults on your mental disabilities and good things will come

[General]

I used to be very socially anxious, but as time went on and life has put me in positions where I was forced to challenge that anxiety it's basically gone now.

[Makingblah]

Don't worry, I can guarantee you that as you get older these anxiety problems will literally just disappear. Once you get into college, you'll be happier, and your problems will vanish.
I have problems remembering the names of people as well, sometimes with family too; people don't mind, they wont get offended. People are just bad at remembering certain things sometimes. I bet you're pretty good at remembering PIN codes and birthdays/phone numbers?
You'll learn to discover that these are just personality traits you have, and that you're not alone when it comes to these things; way less alone then you'd think, too.

[Ipquarx]

Once you get into college, you'll be happier, and your problems will vanish.

How can anyone not be anxious when they have a thesis to write

[Bacon Pancakes]

I tried to commit Self Delete once

I failed miserably

What a shame.

[Makingblah]

How can anyone not be anxious when they have a thesis to write

The lifestyle>thesis writing.

[The GI of MA]

I tried to commit Self Delete once

I failed miserably

[Nonnel]

I tried to commit Self Delete once

I failed miserably

wouldn't that give you even more reason to kill yourself
like that's just one more thing that you suck at

[Flamecannon]

reminds me of the simpsons where moe constantly fails at Self Delete

[MoltenKitten]

wouldn't that give you even more reason to kill yourself
like that's just one more thing that you suck at

That was like a week before I got on depression meds

Now I am as happy as a fly in stuff

Also I figured out that there were much better ways to harm myself that were not permanent

[Frequency]

That was like a week before I got on depression meds

Now I am as happy as a fly in stuff

Also I figured out that there were much better ways to harm myself that were not permanent

down the loving river please

[Gear]

mmh
ive been kicked out of friend circles because of my moodswings caused by BPD
its funny because i always tell them about it when i start hanging out with them
then when something particular happens and i tell them its because BPD they claim im BSing, hiding behind it and that im a coward

people have flat out told me i deserve my BPD and depression, and that i should off myself (this is IRL, ex-friends, not just forum banter). when other friends from that friend circle see it they just either bat a blind eye or agree with it

i could rant about this all day but what i just wrote only scratches the surface
huff, i even have screenshots of someone telling me all this, but theyre in Dutch, sadly.

I feel very sorry for you. A very good friend of mine suffers from BPD aswell, so I can somewhat understand how you feel. Hopefully you'll find better friends who will stick with you despite your condition.

here's a tip: stop blaming all your faults on your mental disabilities and good things will come

I seriously hope you're joking.

[Jubel]

I seriously hope you're joking.

Probably not. There are a lot of people who self diagnose themselves with diseases and disabilities to explain why they're faulted, instead of trying to fix the problem or seeing a professional about it.