damn, yknow theres probably people here who'd be willing to talk to you about it
ive had a few times where i typed out a post but deleted it or most of it due to being afraid of users bullying me with the details, which is what happened before. posts revealing to much about myself get me anxious, the one i just put already does a little.
theres some really nice users on here i would be willing to talk to but i just dont hang out with so many ppl here in private, its mostly just in public discords, but luckily i can usually relieve a bit of stress there
this probably will sound pretty cliche but no matter how stuff your life is there is always people that'll be affected, dont be afraid to have a straight up talk with them because if you have friends that dont care then are they really friends at all?
i appreciate your reply, the situation with my two friends and i is pretty complex