If you've ever argued about the semantics of the word child enthusiast to help rationalize the mindset of wanting to have love with 11 year olds you probably need to take inventory on your loveuality and make sure you're not at risk for loveually abusing children.
Actually that is exactly the reason why they are different and also why they are separated into entirely different groups lol. The maturity gap between a 14 year old and an 11 year old is several magnitudes greater than the gap between adults. I'm not here to tell you what you can and cannot be attracted to, but a 14 year old acting on loveual desires with an 11 year old subject is gross. I don't ever remember anyone at my school who, at the age of 14, wanted to forget 11 year olds. This is pretty unanimously considered creepy and degenerate among normal people.
Whether or not it's child enthusiasm is irrelevant because it's still loveually predatory behavior that will only get worse if justified with dumb rationalizations.
I'm not sure if this was directed at me and Gaut both, but I was not trying to rationalize what he was doing. I was just saying it isn't technically child enthusiasm, but couldn't find a word that fits his case/description. I still think what he did was wrong/disgusting/reprehensible, and he might need to get his head checked for these thoughts even crossing his mind. As for what Gautier's currently saying though, I disagree with him. I think it's equally weird and inappropriate for teens 15 and over to be attracted to teens 13 or younger or whatever else. I even think it's weird and inappropriate for seniors to have the hots for freshman. That's just me.
Regarding you saying it's perhaps classified as hebephilia, I'm not sure that's the case because that term refers to adults who are attracted to adolescents/teenagers. And according to OP, he was an adolescent when he had these feelings, so unless the story was that an adult is attracted to him it's not hebephilia. The terminology doesn't really matter when it comes down to it, but I think it's an interesting conversation. Let's just classify OP as an upcoming child enthusiast.
And OP, I suggest you pack it up and get a new identity - this coming out post is ridiculous and makes you look like a maniac