it's not pathetic or stupid to have things that happen in your life affect other aspects of it, or to respond to pressures in unhealthy ways. I think everyone has done so at some point in their life - I know I have many times. but it's important to learn from it and try to cultivate better habits of coping. it takes a lot of guts to admit you're wrong and I appreciate you doing so - I accept your apology. I don't have any ill will toward you and I'm sorry you're going through whatever you're going through at the moment.