It's probably the only deliriant* drug I can think of that's legal to buy, I'm not trying to break any local, state, or federal laws.
Seriously not being condescending but I highly recommend you see a Therapist. I can say without a doubt I'd rather some community service, a fine or even some jail time rather than brain damage. Like you're talking about the law as it's worse than being permanently mildly disabled in the most annoying ways. Some real world physical discomfort for 6 months probably would be far less stuffty than 10 years of walking up and down the stairs 4 times trying to remember what I was grabbing.
It's not even that fun of a high, you go full blown animal and have zero control over your own body. You WILL walk around and make a mess. I absolutely think you could end up walking out of your house or smearing yourself with stuff. If you injure yourself you're screwed if you don't have a sitter. You black out fast so you won't even remember everything.
DPH is the drug equivalent to the internet telling you to make "crystals" with bleach and ammonia.