a couple of years back, i started trying to hang out with the cool kids. my dad never put me into sports, he never made me do anything, all i did was sit inside. this leaves me small and weak. so, everything is going good for a couple of years. i then notice that they were teasing me, and then i figured out it wasn't teasing. it was bullying. they meant it. they then moved on to hitting me, and being the nice person i was, never did anything back.
this lead to a line of kids just hitting the stuff out of me, what ever thats not an issue anymore. any 'abuse' is just us being boys.
but theres just one kid. he lives on my street, and we were good friends for a while. one day he changed. he started being a bitch. he basically started bullying me. i let him because i thought he was just playing around, and i would let him over to my house. he used me for stuff i cant say. not love or anything gay like that. he knows my everything, hes used to my dog, he knows where i keep everything, he even knows my gate passcode.
this year, i have been severely harrased. today they tried choking me with a hoodie, tried to put a plastic bag on my head. they're constantly hitting me, like so the levels of violence is: playing, sorta mad but playing, not really playing, not playing, and fighting. im in the middle of not playing and fighting. this happens everyday. hes threatened to kill me, hopefully not seriously but i think it is.
im too weak to do anything back. im defensless. i wish i could just beat the stuff out of them. i cant. i cant get away from him, we share the same street and bus. he can get me to do anything by threatening to beat my ass. hes stolen from me, and i cant tell anyone for reasons. i really need help. i cant keep living the rest of my teenage years like this.