Author Topic: Whats the point anymore  (Read 5684 times)

No, im not going to kill myself or shoot up the school like every depressed 15 year old kid so you can stop getting the party hats. Instead im going to whine about my life.

Its summer. Everyone is having fun, going out, going on holidays ans whatsnot. Except me. All I do is jack off all day and cry myself to sleep because I have no friends and im too socially anxious to make some. I have literally none ambition. I have no idea what am supposed to do with my life. Im not smart. Im not strong either. Im not handsome at all and I have no talent at all. I feel like im an obstacle to everyone and constantly trip people or make life harder for them. And the only thing I do about it is going on this goddamn forum and complain about it because theres nothing else I can do about it. My life is completely pointless. And if I somehow manage to get a job instead of ending up on the street sucking off richard for crack. Itll probably be some stuffty office job for 45 loving years untill I retare at the age of 65 and die the next die because of the chronic backpain I got from sitting on my ass all day because a stuffty office job is the only loving job my frail body can handle. I just want to do something that will contribute to the world. A job where people say I did a great damn job. I dont want to die and be forgotten into existance a week after. The toughts about my future has been making me really depressed lately. I just dont see myself doing anything because I cant do anything. And all I do is complain about it... There are people with allot worse problems and I cry over my silly ones. I am literally the worst. The only job I see myself doing is fixing and assembling PC's n stuff. But probably all there is to do is removing snake enlargement virusses because people are too handicapped to get a virus in the first place. I dont want to do that same exact thing for 45 years. And if it really comes down to it id rather become a loving chicken farmer. Living the dream. And all I really want is to get praised by people. No matter how pointless it is what I did. Yeah sure I want a job and have a cool house and all but whats the point if you die afterwards. Its all gone anyways. I just dont see the point in doing stuff anymore.

go outside or to the park and walk your dog/cat/hamster

learn a skill if you are inside all day there is plenty of stuff you can do on a computer between wanking it like coding, modeling, art, music, writing, making videos and a ton of other stuff

you are 15 during the summer these long periods of free time become much rarer as you age

as for your existential dread accept it and move on to do whatever or kill yourself
« Last Edit: August 10, 2016, 03:23:03 AM by DestroyerOfBlocks »

go outside or to the park and walk your dog/cat/hamster
Sad part is I've seen people walk cats before

I just dont see the point in doing stuff anymore.

The classic "I've tried nothing and I'm all out of options" approach

The classic "I've tried nothing and I'm all out of options" approach
solution: do something.

I passed my driving test last December and I also happened to be very depressed  because I lost my job at the same time. It was great because I had a load of free time and I could drive pretty much anywhere my stuff 1 litre Seat can take me. So I went back to my previous job and took up Airsoft as a hobby. It's great because I get to meet loads of people who like guns and military stuff like myself while getting shot at by plastic BB's. Life's great, your world is your oyster.

this happened to my brother last year, and I can only say one thing.
Get a job for the summer only or go to camp. You'll stop feeling like a bag of stuff.

Reproduce with your mother and make yourself a brother

You should talk to someone in person about all this.

You're not in a coma or on the bed, so you can indeed stand up and do something, life is not about getting the attention and praise of others all the time, it's about living and making most of it when possible, it can be really difficult for most teenagers when they reach that point of reality that it's mostly hidden in our childhood where you'll be alone to explore the world and build your life by your own, it can be scary, but eventually you'll find a spot where you'll like what you're doing and things starts to change, the only person holding you back from doing anything is yourself, because you can make things happen and change your course, but if you sit down there on your bedroom depressed about it then nothing will ever change.

I lost a few years of my life doing the same, I coudn't do well in class and neither with anyone on school, all I did was get stuck in a bedroom doing nothing useful because I thought I was incredbily awkward and I coudn't do anything right, that really affected me back then.
« Last Edit: August 10, 2016, 06:34:21 AM by Filipe »

No, im not going to kill myself or shoot up the school like every depressed 15 year old kid so you can stop getting the party hats. Instead im going to whine about my life.

Its summer. Everyone is having fun, going out, going on holidays ans whatsnot. Except me. All I do is jack off all day and cry myself to sleep because I have no friends and im too socially anxious to make some. I have literally none ambition. I have no idea what am supposed to do with my life. Im not smart. Im not strong either. Im not handsome at all and I have no talent at all. I feel like im an obstacle to everyone and constantly trip people or make life harder for them. And the only thing I do about it is going on this goddamn forum and complain about it because theres nothing else I can do about it. My life is completely pointless. And if I somehow manage to get a job instead of ending up on the street sucking off richard for crack. Itll probably be some stuffty office job for 45 loving years untill I retare at the age of 65 and die the next die because of the chronic backpain I got from sitting on my ass all day because a stuffty office job is the only loving job my frail body can handle. I just want to do something that will contribute to the world. A job where people say I did a great damn job. I dont want to die and be forgotten into existance a week after. The toughts about my future has been making me really depressed lately. I just dont see myself doing anything because I cant do anything. And all I do is complain about it... There are people with allot worse problems and I cry over my silly ones. I am literally the worst. The only job I see myself doing is fixing and assembling PC's n stuff. But probably all there is to do is removing snake enlargement virusses because people are too handicapped to get a virus in the first place. I dont want to do that same exact thing for 45 years. And if it really comes down to it id rather become a loving chicken farmer. Living the dream. And all I really want is to get praised by people. No matter how pointless it is what I did. Yeah sure I want a job and have a cool house and all but whats the point if you die afterwards. Its all gone anyways. I just dont see the point in doing stuff anymore.

You literally described myself for the past 3 or 4 years more or less. Want to know how to get these deluded, black-and-white thoughts out of your head? Get out and loving do things. That might sound rude, but that's the only way you're going to come out of this crCIA which is most likely you can't see the meaning of life. The meaning of life is whatever the forget you want it to be. Want to be a social recluse? Stay in your studio apartment for the rest of your life. Want to enjoy life with others around you? Go out and do stuff. Try stuff that might not even interest you; life is too short to experience only a few things.

I used to have some pretty severe social phobia, but then I realized two things: you're never going to get better with people unless you put yourself out there, and people admire your confidence. If you're quirky or weird, be weird. There might be some people that don't like that about you, but your confidence will flourish and people are attracted to that.

Hey come on, you dont have to think like that. Yeah, we all die, things come to an end, but the point of that time inbetween is to have fun. Look for things you absolutely love doing, even if you dont have the skillset for it, just learn it. If youre interested in computers, look up some cool things you can do. Maybe even draw, doesnt matter if its good or not. You can learn to do these things and find out how fun it is in the long run.  Watch cartoons, read books, maybe even try writing for yourself. If you dont want to be doing the same thing your entire life, go try learning new things, broaden your skillset to a permanent career and multitide of hobbies. Dont just say 'theres no point', because if you find entertainment to continue then there sure as hell is.
And you DONT have to be good, the best, or skilled, just as long as what you try provides a little fun.

this happened to my brother last year, and I can only say one thing.
Get a job for the summer only or go to camp. You'll stop feeling like a bag of stuff.
I had a job
It was for 2 days tough but who cares
but the said I didnt have to come for the second day because "they had too many people"
With other words I wasnt strong enough to do the heavy lifting stuff and they just "fired" me
Well I did earn 50 quids yeah but it made me feel totally useless. I tried so hard too.
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But theres nothing I can do with the power I have
Im not smart enough to go to college and make my dreams come true, not matter how hard I try. Also I have stuff vision and you need 20/20 vision for the stuff I want to do. Unless someone starts mass producing space ships for consumer use where you can visit the coolest planet in a matter of seconds with your coolio hyperdrive or whatever.
I do want to play an instrument but I cant see myself making money of that

As for meeting people, I cant. I do want to, trust me. But I cant. Im afraid of the wierd looks I get by just randomly talking to the coolest kid in the block and get called a creep or loser .3 seconds after that.

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Hey come on, you dont have to think like that. Yeah, we all die, things come to an end, but the point of that time inbetween is to have fun. Look for things you absolutely love doing, even if you dont have the skillset for it, just learn it. If youre interested in computers, look up some cool things you can do. Maybe even draw, doesnt matter if its good or not. You can learn to do these things and find out how fun it is in the long run.  Watch cartoons, read books, maybe even try writing for yourself. If you dont want to be doing the same thing your entire life, go try learning new things, broaden your skillset to a permanent career and multitide of hobbies. Dont just say 'theres no point', because if you find entertainment to continue then there sure as hell is.
And you DONT have to be good, the best, or skilled, just as long as what you try provides a little fun.
I know its probably fun for the years between life and death but, im scared out of my mind if I die with any regrets.
Honestly, if I could, I would just grab my backpack, a handfull of cash, maps and just forget off and wander somewhere. Talk to the nearest truck driver and ask him to take me where he is going wherever that may be. God knows where i'll end up. Might as well be in loving china one month and spain the next.
« Last Edit: August 10, 2016, 08:30:31 AM by espio100 »

Right here pal > .

keep in mind guys, espio's only 16, and depending on his options he may be really limited in what he can do by just "going out and doing something" (even though i agree with that advice tenfold)

here's my own two cents, coming from someone who literally felt the exact same way though high school (and recently, now that i'm unemployed): join an after-school activity. whether it's a club, sport, or whatever, join one. you'll make friends and have stuff to do. i really wish i stayed in track because i would have made so many more connections in high school even though i was a total nerd, but i missed out on that opportunity and it feels bad now. everyone's going to college with their high school buddies, and i've got to make new friends through college because only in the last year or so have i been really thinking about putting myself out there and actually trying to get out of the house. don't get me wrong, making friends in college isn't that hard at all, but it's still hard feeling a bit alone. my university is in the same town as me and i feel like i went out of state for college because i don't really know anyone besides a couple close friends.
« Last Edit: August 10, 2016, 08:43:58 AM by Remurr »