OP you loving dumbass.
The reason pot(or whatever you were smoking, tldr didn't read past first page) is illeal is to protect you. You've broken a rule and youshould be made to pay for it. Its for your own good, it should teach you a lesson.
On a related note, drugs and the people that use them are idiots. But hey, its your body. Go ahead, ruin it if you want. It won't bother me. Just learn your lesson the hard way if thats what it takes.